Pressure. Confuse.

Suddenly feel like blogging pulak...

Recently there's so super much things that bother me...

Graduating soon so kinda headache of what job to look for...

Sud or sudn't back to Captivate?
What Eric said really true, DO NOT CAGE YOURSELF in CAPTIVATE...
But my certificate seems useless as i learnt EVERYTHING but know NOTHING...
What the course offered really the basic of everything...
If were to compete with others, guess I'll be losing completely!

Second,
What I want to work as is not what i sud go for as the pay would be so extremely low.
Mum non stop giving me pressure about paying back loan & also car loan.
Damn!!Sometimes really kinda 'gek' talking to her but this is the fact of my life after graduate!
No more asking money from MUM!!
Plan for future!!
So, let's say bye bye to my production & photography interest!!=(

Third,
Do I really ready to be in relationship?
I'm so confuse with my feeling...
Do I really have that feeling or just because I would like to find a partner?
I've been telling myself that my boyfriend will have to be tall and I'm not going for any guy younger than I do.
But, that's seems to be just the guideline. Everything are depending on the feel. =)

Addelyn,
All the best for the final!
Be happy =D
All the best!

the process of living!!

suddenly so down...
think har think har think dou last week de yum cha session!!!
aiiiihx......

well,

last week yum cha with old frens....
but it seems so weird as the feeling is different!!!
i find that they are not they are whom i noe b4!!

during the yum cha session every1 is like doing their own things eating their own meal playing their own games!!
wondering is this the process of living???

i had a feeling that there wont be any trip among us juz like last time as i can feel that everyone is so busy with their work, life and their another half! even though there's some who wanted to have trip like me but dunno lar!!!

forget about it la!!!maybe bcoz i'm so free now that's y i have this stupid feeling!!! watever it is juz let it be la....everyone has their own life that they wan!!not wat i wan is wat i wan!!

wat jason said might be true oso!!
Guess maybe dunno which fren get married then every1 of us might get the chance to meet!!!

wondering after that last week yum cha session when will be our next yum cha session again!!!

let's see!! =)

Happy Birthday to ME

it was N years that i've not updated my blog..
lolx...
juz wanted to write sth on my birthday...
At the begining of the day i tot that was a shyt day for me!!!
Have to go up & down non stoply....
climbed the stairs for so many thousands time carrying few kg of leaflets!!!
the most =.= is that carry the damn things to 6th floor then have to carry back to 5th floor to courier!!!
After non stoply climbing up and down then went to the wash room....
shyt the pipes for being so cacated!!
when i turn on the pipe then the water flow very slow then turn on more then the water flow fast like hell...
when i was trying to turn it off the water flow even faster!!!shyt the pipe!!!
at that moment i was like super the =.=!!!really got no idea wat happen....deng deng....
but luckily can close!!!else i really slap the pipe...shyt it!!

That day i tot my birthday will juz pass like a normal day but thank to Gabriel, Anson, Eric, Choi Shan and Wai Fong for birthday dinner in Zanmai Sushi!!!
So glad that they actually spend time celebrating my birthday and also treated me dinner!!!
Really thank them for treating me as their fren even though i'm just an intern in the company!!
It's really a memorable birthday!!

Reach home arnd 11...mum prepare 2 eggs for me and sister in law bought me chocolate indulgence from secret recipe!=)
All are so yummy yummy!!!

Love them so super much!!!Thank every1 for all the wishes and the celebration and all the food!!lolx.....

That day i was so super super super full but yet a happy and a memorable birthday!!!
Again thank to Mama, Sis, Gab, Anson, Eric, Choi San and Wai Fong!!! =)

I'm so Pet Dog!

lolx...
today is the 3rd day of working but i still so pet dog...hahaha....
i guess my mouth will stink soon if i still continue being a pet dog in the lovely office...XD
but what to do...i dunno how to start the conversation...hahahaa.....
wanted to talk to them more but scare later surely a lot of gossip...
anyway, today oso nth much to do but juz data entry....another day that i BEG for task!!mentor come in at 1 so i juz rot there press the keyboard for nothing and look at the monitor for nothing!!!it's so so =.="
hopefully next week will be better....but anyhow i'm afraid that wat am i learning now is not really related to wat am i studying now as i feel like i'm so clerk now!!hahhahaa....
hopefully by next week will get better and learn more things and also communicate well with others even though i think it's kinda tough!!hahaha....anyway, the colleagues are not bad la juz that ermmm...dunno wat and how to talk to them...
super extremely tired!!!
2molo wanna wake up at 7 these 3 days i reach there at 8 and waited for nth as the door is not opened!

New life in New office

woke up at 615 this morning as mum afraid i would be late for work but who noes i reach at 8. =.="
reach there waited in the car wanted to listen to radio who noes can't receive as i'm in the basement. super =.="
at 830 go to pay for parking which cost me RM 334 but my monthly pay only RM 400. really geng =.="
i was place in the 8th floor where my table got nth but the desktop.hahahhaa....
at 10 go for office tour, tour till 11sth. so super lot of human.. intro till i oso sien they oso sien! XD
then went back to my department and my mentor brief me abt report i sud do...
b4 1 they edy said go lunch!!i tot they joke only
hahahaha...who noes really lunch...
then follow them go lunch & mentor belanja...
then come back see my colleague do report then i oso learn learn how to do then do till 6 sth...hahahhaa
cold dou sei!!!then colleague so nice help me on & off air cond...hahhaa..i can feel that he actually very nice fella..gud gud!!haha...if not scare sei me!!!hahaha...
overall i can feel that the company is actually a gud company!!hopefully i can learn a lot of things..hehehee......

2molo another working day!!!kinda lazy wanna wake up so early.....n now i feel so sleepy at 2041
hahahahhaa......

New Year New Day New blog!!

Lolx....suddenly feel like updating my blog in this new 2010...
2009 was not bad but hopefully in year 2010 my life will be better and more challenging!!!

gonna start internship 2molo!!hahahaha....now very gan jeong!!!wondering if i could survive in the company!!!anyway, juz hope to learn things in the company and meet more new faces!!

but the most important things is that i need to build up my confidence and oso dun be afraid of human anymore!!! that's wat i wish!!

wondering wat time i sud wake up 2molo...mum said have to depart at 7 so guess i'll have to wake up at 615...=.=
will be more hardworking to update my blog!!hahaha....
wan ching jie jie dun say i dun update my blog ar!!!hahahhaa....

Penang Trip

18 Dec 2008

Stay overnite in siow's hse but before that siow & me went to ts as she wanna buy her presents (her own birthday but wanna buy present pulak)...so super swt!met with wan ching for a movie, Yes Man, before shop. long time never meet wan ching since shin's birthday....she's still that lady like XD...

after movie when for shopping then met tik han to get that siow's presents (a square look bag for her). shop with that siow till arnd 7 then went for dinner in Barbeque Plaza in times square...

bbq-ing bacon

b'day aunt & tik han

after that we went to yum cha in look out point, gasoline. the view was nice but then got super lot of insects....gosh gosh....meet with that uncle duck there....bought a cake for siow...

green tea cake bought at Bee's

tulips given as surprise by tik han 

19 Dec 2008

woke up super early which is 6 to prepare as the bus to penang is at 7.30...reach the station then waited at the platform 4 for half hour. we were wondering if the bus would reach sg.nibong onot as it stated there it's from kl-butterworth..then saw no human in the bus...super worrying...but then ended up we waited for nth as that's not the bus to penang but then front bus which is not the konsortium bus..super swt...wondering how come that stupid konsortium can be so super irresponsible!!!isssshhhh....

reached penang sg.nibong arnd 12.30 then waited for siow's fren, alex to fetch us to our hotel. he showed us show road and building to be remembered so that even we got lost oso could get our way back to hotel but yet we can't even remember one XD...then he showed us that there's a condominium which cost at least RM 2m for a lot..swt man...so expensive how to stay...those houses there are super duper expensive!! we checked in the hotel then went to have our BRUNCH in a food court...that aunt were talking to us in hokkien to order drink...so swt 4 of us dunno hokkien...luckily alex were there...he bought us the nasi lemak that he said was super nice...

Cititel Hotel

Our Room, 1115

View from out Room

back our hotel to take out rented car, Myvi (so called test drive as i haven get my own Myvi yet XD)..once we got the car we drive arnd. then look for a temple that have sleeping buddha....

Our rented car

Reclining buddha temple

sleeping buddha

after all the snapping in the temple we went to look for light things to eat..went to a place cal new world food court to have our light tea time XD. we had asam laksa, ice kacang and loh bak there...lok bak was nice asam laksa was terrible...ice kacang were not bad thou...we keeps on giving comment on our food XD

after than we went back to our hotel for a rest and shower then arnd 8 we went out again to the gurney drive as alex said that it's gonna have a lot of food and it's crowded there...we ordered lots of foods...YUM YUM

char kuey teow, asam laksa, fried oyster, otak-otak, loh bak, penang har mee, rojak...YUM YUM

the street at the seasides, lots of ppl playing with small kites and 'blowing wind' with family & friends

holding their kites happily as nvr seen small kites XD

feel that i'm so super happy and kiddy XD (nvr play kite b4 marrr )

after all the 38 at the drive we went back to our hotel..we went to a longue to have drink they we sat there for chit chatting but then our main mission were to 'kap aqua' XD....

20 Dec 2008

we set our alarm at 8 but ended up we woke up at 9 sth...XD...so we had our breakfast at arnd 11..we had a heavy breakfast which was bak kut teh...not bad not bad..haha..but this bak kut teh so farnie, they put pork ball in...nvr had bak kut teh with pork ball...LOL

after breakfast we went to bukit bendera but then when we queue for tickets they left only 4.30 tickets. since still got 4 hrs we went to kek lok si 1st...there's a lot of clothes and things being sell along the way to the kek lok si....siow and i bought cheongsam and toy...that shin bought a red cap, and bee bought something but dunno wat edy XD

silver man that sitting there hoping that ppl with give him money

way to kek lok si

tortoises in kek lok si

- to be continued later~~(lazy edy, too much to blog XD)

PC Fair~~

so glad that i'm home now....XD

today walked the whole day now my leg doesn't feel like it's mine anymore....XD

started to walk in times square arnd 11sth as i gotta wait for that hedy to off work....

walked almost the whole complex but i bought nth....haha

tot wanna buy necklaces and bag but then can't get any....at and 1 i started to feel super tired dun feel like walking anymore yet i still walked to sg.wang for time pass..then to pavillion....then received call from hedy asking me to wait her at the bridge to wisma cosway....

waited for few minutes then she called and we walked to that KLCC....gotta walk from the top floor to the last floor...son super tired and super crowded....

hedy wanted to buy camera and i wanted to buy speakers. so we sandwiched in the crowd. at the begining we saw the kodak's camera which is not bad but then physical look of the camera kinda farnie la XD so we walked arnd then saw a hall with thousands of speakers...kinda excited with speaker...lol...wondering why!!haha...anyway we juz look arnd and walkey away...

then we saw the olympus camera that hedy wanted to buy but then i kinda feel that the camera was not as good as the kodak's as the photo taken was kinda blur and the colour a little weird...again we walked....saw may san distributing samsung's monitor's brouchure...she looks pretty...

so i bought a laptop protector and keypad protector....but the area were super crowded until i can take those protectors walked arnd yet no wan wanna stop me coz i've not pay yet...i guess even if i din paid oso they dunno...but then dun be so bad la...haha...(but then now those things seems like not ngam my laptop :( RM25 le...aiiih....)

continued our journey in the fair then saw nikon camera..at that moment i think that the camera was the best among those we've seen yet we still wanna walk arnd to look for others even thou both our legs gonna break into pieces soon XD

finally we saw a samsung camera cost RM 549. function was not bad. then that promoter kept on 'stepping' other brands...kinda bad but then wat to do...that's his job....then he say that he gonna give free gift which include tripod, landyard, 2+2GD memory..that promoter said that since he's not sell any yet so he gave us free screen protector(as if so gud)...for us, the price and the spec were ok but then v still wanted to look for more as hedy think that it's kinda thick...

as we walked saw another booth that have the same samsung model that we saw earlier..but then the price is different and the gift were different....even the promoter seems to be better than the previous one (he gave me 3 recycle bags XD)...this time the price were RM 499 only then with 4+2GB, screen protector(give sincerely), those normal things that sud be given...then the promoter so 'sai sum' show us every single mode using the camera XD (seems like i got 'hou gam' wit that fella since he give me those bags XD )...i asked for a lower price then he give us RM490..haha...save another RM9...haha....then he packed the things for hedy...i asked for a recycle bag then he gave me one after that he asked me if i still want more....haha....then he gave me 2 more....haha (as if that bag got wat treasure)

after buying everything that we wanted then we wanted to walk back to the 3rd floor that were selling speaker  but then we have to walk a big round and gotta walk from the begining of the entrance to the PC fair hall!!!so super swt....but still have to walk....i bought a EVO3 but then it's so super super super heavy until dunno how to explain....after buying the speakers we're wanted to walk back to the UOA entrance but then we have to walk all over from the beginning to the end of the hall...that really made us swt a lot....gotta sandwiched  all over again....

both of us carried the speaker until wanna vomit blood as it's so super heavy..we walked with the speakers from the KLCC to the times square....heavy untilll~~!!!thank hedy for carrying the speakers for me....tot wanna back sri petaling to find mum but then who noes she went home edy...swt...luckily sis in law still in maluri so i took cab to find her...so worry that if she's gone home then i really got no idea how to back home carrying that enormous speakers...anyhow, i'm still super happy having speakers...can 'burst' my room in kampar as i won't bored till die there...haha..plan wanna back home once a sem but then wondering if that's too long or wat...if back home often the sure it's gonna cost me a lot and i promised to not spending so much in the future (wondering if i can do it XD)....hopefully~~!!!

Ke Xin In Hospital

ytd since xin woke up she complained stomachache..mum and i tot that she was having normal stomachache but she keep complaning the whole day are barely unable to walk...pity her.. :(

bring her to Dr. Wong when her mum back from work. he afraid that she might have appendix so he gave a letter for us to bring her to HUKM.

Waited for 1.5 hrs to be consulted by doctor. doc said that she need to be in wad for check up. pity her for being unable to walk but yet she'll still happy go lucky :). her mum acc her in the hospital.

this morning being woke up by mum at 6 ><". ytd sleep at 1 then need to wake up so super early...super super sleepy... :(

anyway, reach hospital then waited for nurses to bring her for CT scan...

Luckily it wasn't an appendix but doctors said that her nodes somewhere in her pancreas swollen. nothing serious but she need to take antibiotic to decrease the swollen. muz drink a lot of water to wash away all the bacteria inside...

when i was in the hopital goh goh and sou when home, those doctors and nurses tot that she's my daughter..keep on asking me everything bout her then when i said i'm not sure gotta ask her mum then they were so surprise that i told them i'm not her mum XD

hope that she can back home by 2molo and the nodes getting smaller.....

UnTalkable...

aiiiih, today once wake up i was totally out of voice...super terrible...

today i think i talk not more than 10 words bcoz i'm totally out voice.....aiiih...wat a bad day

tot of getting sick but then ended up out of voice.....

oh ya, this morning wear nice nice tot going to mv with that siow ended up she ffk me...isssh isssh...gek sei....ended up rotting in aunt's hse....super cham..that's wat i hate the most......

ytd, finally know why she never talk to me for many thousands yrs.....

feel extremely relief once she told me the problem.....

hopefully we can still be fren like we used to be....... ^^

The World Most Stupid Human!

went to jusco juz now then got 1 stupid idiot gold ugly myvi malay old driver so stupid who cut queue!!!that stupid idiot simply juz park his car even he saw me waited for so damn long!!wat the heck on earth happen to drivers??Are they stupidly mad idiot and i really wonder if they had their driving license...really feel like wanna slap sei that fella kill sei that fella and burn his car off!!!wat the heck!!!stupid idiot!!IDIOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!

i horned him so damn long when he park my place yet he can pretend nth and juz walk away!!!is that stupid idiot myvi malay driver brain's got problem???izit????really feel like wanna slap him upside down inside up!!!!or maybe he dun actually have a brain!!! nvm, we pity him for not having brain!!really nvm!!!! 

this is the stupid fella's car!!so super ugly like shyt!!ugly until see oso wanna vomit, truck passby oso wanna bang on it!!!police see oso wanna summon him!!!

Raining Friday...

morning went out to yeong guang with hedy coz she went back to her office to get her phone. driving the old red saga down to pudu and eat eat...

watched twilight with yoong sing after breakfast with hedy...the movie was not bad....it's abt vampire who fall in love with a girl....nice nice but then the main actor not that charming and gorgeous as were describe in the movie XD.....summore look abit cacated....

TWILIGHT is an action-packed, modern-day love story between a teenage girl and a vampire. Bella Swan (Kristen Stewart) has always been a little bit different, never caring about fitting in with the trendy girls at her Phoenix high school. When her mother re-marries and sends Bella to live with her father in the rainy little town of Forks, Washington, she doesn't expect much of anything to change. Then she meets the mysterious and dazzlingly beautiful Edward Cullen (Robert Pattinson), a boy unlike any she's ever met. Edward is a vampire, but he doesn't have fangs and his family is unique in that they choose not to drink human blood. Intelligent and witty, Edward sees straight into Bella's soul. Soon, they are swept up in a passionate, thrilling and unorthodox romance. To Edward, Bella is what he has waited 90 years for - a soul mate. But the closer they get, the more Edward must struggle to resist the primal pull of her scent, which could send him into an uncontrollable frenzy. But what will Edward & Bella do when a clan of new vampires - James (Cam Gigandet), Laurent (Edi Gathegi) and Victoria (Rachelle Lefevre) - come to town and threaten to disrupt their way of life?

driving home under the heavy rain, traffic jam and the unable to closed window that makes me got wet in the car ><"

shoudn't have scroll down the window but luckily there're not float in my car XD.....

hope to come out with yoong sing more often so that i could update myself about her stuff ^^

oh ya, kancil awards nite!! ><>

Bubyes Wira~~!

ytd mum so efficiently trade in the wira then straight away bought a Myvi...

will get a new grey Myvi in few days time...

bye bye wira man~!!!thank you for blueey wira XD

so excited of getting new Myvi...

at the beginning, mum tot of getting saga but then really dun like saga le...like frog!!! eeeeyyyyeeewwwww.....

this car gonna be mine sooner or later...haha....

but then poor mum gotta pay for installment every month 500++....

she tot wanna go for trip but now ended up buying a new car...

Painful Leg~!!

such a bad luck day as my leg is so pain as i wake up. i wonder if i knocked my leg or wat when i was sleeping....

well, as today is sunday there's nothing special to do oso...

bought my new samsung monitor (SyncMaster 9433NX) ytd but then i feel that the image is abit cacated as i can see lines on the screen.....hmmmm

oh ya, ytd i dreamt that i was in relationship with Mr.I XD. i've nvr think abt him for so many thousands yrs suddenly he appeared in my dream....so super farnie....

went for so call interview in kopitiam ytd but interview nth. Haha. that tommy juz tell me the details about network marketing... so swt...tot i can get a job but then ended up it's something like direct sales...summore need to pay RM 2000 for starter pack....

if i got money i wont look for job la....issh isshhh....

waiting for kancil~~

aiih, i think i cant get the awards!! :( 

reallly wanna win the awards arrr!!hate them for calling me juz to ask which college am i but then din say that i win any awards....if i'm not qualify then juz dun ask me for college la...juz wan to dissapoint me!!super super super hate this!!!nvr have this kind of waiting n  worries feelings before...

maybe mine print ads was too ugly n so not professional...aiiih...

anyway gotta try hard nx year!!!!

I WANNA GO FOR TRIPS!!!!!! 

but i'm so super PK!!wondering how to go for trip since i've only have RM100.........damn cham...

i wanna buy...

~ clothes

~ keyboard

~ speaker

~ bag

~ facial cleanser

I NEED MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

who can donate me some money??? XD

Double Movies Watched~~!!

ytd went to watch madagascar with my 3 nieces n my sister in law...
gosh, they were not watching movie but juz jump here jump there sit here sit there.....
the cartoon was not bad but nothing special...
juz a normal cartoon show...
in the shopping complex i really felt like wanna buy super lot of things but then the problem is that i'm so super broke!!!
help me to get rid of this broke-ness plsss~~~!!!!!

nite time received a call from mr.pig asking me out for the bond movie...
hmm...i actually dun feel like wanna watch that movie bcoz i din watch the 1st episode but then since i'm so super boring again i went to Jusco Cheras Selatan (the place that i alwz lepak) to watch that movie....
kinda dun understand wat's that movie was abt...
and i felt super sleepy XD
but anyhow better than rotting at home....

Lots of Time~~!

Eagle Eye
watched eagle eye ytd with ts in midvalley...the movie was not bad but bcoz my eyes is so extremely tired, kinda suffering when i watched the movie... ><><" since he fetched me at 10 we reached midvalley arnd 10.30 but the movie started at 11.30 we ended up window shopping in the complex...really window shopping as all the shop were closed, we can only shop but looking into the shop thru the windows... XD but the feel was not bad as there's no ppl following us...haha...can see watever we wan... oh ya, saw a mickey mouse n minnie mouse in dynasty costume....soooooo nice...... ^^ i wish i could have them...haha...but there's impossible since it cost RM 478...super expensive... Glasses
ytd went to gym then my spec fall ended up the glasses smashed.. ><>< style="font-weight: bold;">Japanese Classes
wondering if i wanna continue the japanese classes but then i really afraid if i can't catch up coz apakaba book 2 i've not mastered it yet >< style="font-weight: bold;">Ear Pierce's day
pierce ears on saturday, now it's not painful anymore....can take off the ear rings edy....
oh ya, that day went to bangsar send my sis-in-law to consult at sinse...ended up myself oso went for the check up bcoz of hardly breathing...doctor said that i'm should avoid sleeping in air-cond room, even if wanna sleep oso need to put 25C n put water in the room...oh ya, shouldn't drink cold and ice drink oso....
took those med on sunday but nth happen then monday i took the med ended up got 'feng mok'...so farnie as the 1st day took nth happen but then the 2nd day got 'feng mok' ><" luckily now nth edy....hopefully can breath smoothly and no more sneezing every morning.... >

Waiting Day~~!!

LRT
recieved a call from mum after class...ask if i could reached sri petaling by 3.30...
swt...it's kinda impossible....at 3.30 only i got the train to sri petaling from hang tuah... ><><>< style="font-weight: bold;">Night market
1st time been to that night market in the sri petaling...the night market is not too big...
oh ya, bought a new pillow since the old pillow was damage by sis-in-law ><><>< style="font-weight: bold;">

Sushi Bonanza~~!

Mr.Baoz
bought 6 pieces of Mr.Baoz today...
guess it's gonna be tastier if eat in hot but then too bad reached home at 10sth....
how tasty is it oso has become bad taste...
aiih..ws suddenly called if wanna change place to times square to have sushi king....
i guess become her fren wana join that's y she wanna change place....
but then if went to leisure mall oso it's gonna be hard for ws n bl to back home...

Sushi King
anyway, today sushi king was crowded..queue was so super super long waited for 1 hour
..all people were busy grabbing for sushi...
i wanted to have more tempura sushi but then too bad too many people... ><
i ate a lot of thngs....n now is so super sleepy...
i guess i'm going to be super super super fat
slimming plan gonna be mission failed ><

Buses
after sushi it was 9...luckily bl acc me walked to pudu jail...she acc me to wait for bus n she planned to take taxi after i got into bus....65 came but then it's too crowded so i dun feel like wanna take the bus...
once she saw 65 she take cab back home...since she's back i take bus no.62 but then that stupid bus dun wanna move.... ><
sitting in the bus for more than half and hour...tired, sleepy, boring, dirty, uncomfortable.... ><
reach tmn anggerik at 10.15 luckily my mum has reached there else it's gonna be super scary as it's so super extremely dark....

-> wanted to start writing in japanese so that can improved my japanese but then dunno how to start writing in japanese ><

Carl's Junior Day

Carl's Junior
hmm...today had carl junior with y.w.s..the taste was good but it's so super expensive...
it cost me RM 21.95 excluding gov. tax. but anyway that was the 1st time i try this which i wanted to try ages ago...finally can get to try this... yum yum XD

ICLS
this morning went to ICLS, realised that last friday only 2 people present... LOL
taught i'm the 1 who absent but then when i asked some frens regarding what have learned but then every1 said that they're absent...XD....so coincidence! LOL
oh gosh, my japanese language is so super poor!!want to mastered it so that i won't waste money learning japanese. plan to write down all those verbs ascendingly so that i can easily check those verbs XD...

California
saw Jack Yee if i not mistaken... XD but i think she din notice me oso...
sweat a lot as i did gym.... XD
a good start...great great!!!wonder if i can get slimmer by this... XD
super fat like dunno what.... 

Confuse~!

izit a gud choose to enrol for the bachelor of business in sales and marketing in the wou??
can i cope with it??do u have that much of time???
will i manage to get gud result for both advertising an d the marketing courses??
there's so much things that i wanted to do but then do i really have to initiative and time to do??
will i put effort to do it??i dun feel like wanna waste time anymore as i've wasted plenty of time since the day i was born...
really hope that i can learn more now but i afraid that i can't cope with the studies and time then ended up i'm stuck in the middle going no where...
muz think properly before doing the enrolment decision else i'll be wasting money and time...><